Author: Barry Lyga
Genre: Contemporary, Young Adult
Release Date: April 18, 2017
One shot ruined his life. Another one could end it.
Sebastian Cody did something horrible, something no one—not even Sebastian himself—can forgive. At the age of four, he accidentally shot and killed his infant sister with his father’s gun.
Now, ten years later, Sebastian has lived with the guilt and horror for his entire life. With his best friend away for the summer, Sebastian has only a new friend—Aneesa—to distract him from his darkest thoughts. But even this relationship cannot blunt the pain of his past. Because Sebastian knows exactly how to rectify his childhood crime and sanctify his past.
It took a gun to get him into this.
Now he needs a gun to get out.
This book is about Sebastian, and his guilt of killing his baby sister when he was just 4 years old. This actually had the perfect combination of having interesting characters and a great plot! I’ve read a lot of contemporary books, but this book surprised me!
The characters were very real and raw. You can feel that you actually know them, even the side characters. You don’t only get a glimpse of what they’re going through, especially Sebastian, but you’ll feel as of you’re actually there with them.
This book also discussed important and tough issues and they are all done well. Racism, gun safety, teen suicide, and mental health played a major role in this story. This is really an intense and emotional read and I highly recommend this.
“There’s a difference between what you’ll do in your mind and what you’ll actually do for real.”
“The truth is nothing anyone does or says can change what already happened.”
“Because here’s something else that I’ve learned—rarely do the “significant events” in our lives change us. At least, not in any way we want. The people who suffer tragedy and go on to greatness? They’re the stuff of movies and TV shows and books, and—only very rarely—real life. Most of just go on, the walking wounded, dealing with our lives. This doesn’t make us bad—it just means we’re not superheroes. It means we’re just people, like everyone else.”
“That’s what I learned: People can wonder and ponder and imagine all they want. But their curiosity does not entitle them to enter my world.”
Soundtrack: Mama’s Tears by Corey Kilgannon
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About the Author:
Barry Lyga is a recovering comic book geek. According to Kirkus, he’s also a “YA rebel-author.” Somehow, the two just don’t seem to go together to him.
When he was a kid, everyone told him that comic books were garbage and would rot his brain, but he had the last laugh. Raised on a steady diet of comics, he worked in the comic book industry for ten years, but now writes full-time because, well, wouldn’t you?
The Astonishing Adventures of Fanboy & Goth Girl is his first novel. Unsoul’d is his latest. There are a whole bunch in between, featuring everything from the aftermath of child abuse to pre-teens with superpowers to serial killers. He clearly does not know how to stick to one subject.